Psst, that's my mouth and hand :) sweet eh? ---->

Today  is just another day...sure it's Valentine's Day but...oh well not particularly fond of it...for some reason more this year than any other year...you know what they should call this day "singles awareness day" that's what it should be called.  Anyway if I sound like I'm being bitch or self-pitying or moping or whining, it's because I most likely am...but don't piss me off right now.  I think I'm almost on the verge of another mental breakdown as a matter of fact...rejection does have a huge effect on people's psyche, and if people DON'T realize this soon enough say hello to more and more school bullying and/or killings and/or shootings...just forewarning you, not that I'm going to do anything because I'm trying to maintain my composure but other people can't handle things like that...I"m just not particularly fond of this day, that is all.

One of my friends flashflood , said post something new, well Carly there's nothing really much to talk about, I've got school ( I hate math), I have friends, a girlfriend, I work at school now, I just recently went on a retreat called Kairos (God's time) at our school and it is one of the most phenomonal experiences of my life, CKX for life!, other than that, umm, my mom is grounding me right now because I lost my keys at a friends house last saturday (18th) after going over there after work when I was told not too, then I fell asleep over there after I said I'd be home by 12, then I was woken up by Sean's mom at 1 and she said my parents are comin, then I got yelled at by them and almost didn't get to go on Kairos the next day, then i went on Kairos (again phenomonal experience) and came back on wednesday night, where our families and past Kaironians (we're weird like that, but yet awesome) came and celebrated us doing this retreat (complete surprise).  Then on thanksgiving sean called and said he found my keys, and I also went walking for 4-5 hours and everyone was flipping out because I purposely didn't take my cell phone because I wanted time alone to myself without anyone bothering me.  Then friday I woke up early for black friday for the sales, we didn't really get anything, by the time we got there all the good stuff was gone.  Later that day my friends Dan and Brett called from a place they were at saying they didn't have a ride and they were playing pool and me and my dad played a game and totally owned (my dad's a pool shark he worked at a pool hall when he was 13 and absolutely loves the game) so Dan and Brett had 1 ball left and missed it and it was my dad's turn and we had 5 balls left on the table and my dad sunk all of them and the eight ball and one from behind, sweet victory .  Then on saturday was my girlfriend (Jayme) and I's 1 month anniversary, since I'm grounded I couldn't do anything, so I have a surprise for her on monday, and she was over at her friends house yesterday and we talked for a while on the phone and then were txt messaging till about 2 in the morning then they left me all these weird voicemails in the morning including a recording of "Hey Ya" from Outkast, which was cute, cuz she knows I like that song, then I talked to her again this morning, doin' some laundry, and now have to do math homework.  I hope this was satisfactory Carly, we need to talk I've been trying to call you and I've been txt messaging you but you won't respond, CALL ME BACK SOMETIME EH!!!

my grandmother died.

I DON'T GET IT!?!?!?

BAM!, final nail in the coffin, I emailed melinda back saying I wouldn't get back with her, she broke up with me and that's the way it's going to stay.

Ok this is crazy...as you all know melinda broke up with me, but then I was a pimp and bounced back and asked 2 girls...that's right TWO girls to homecoming within 5 mins and they said yes.  She said it was because of distance and I was thinking maybe another guy was involved.  Well today she said she wanted to get back with me and she said "i was just stupid and thought that i had feeling for some one else but i now realize that those feelings weren't for the other person but that they were for you it just took me a long time for me to realize that"  I was right with my suspicion of another guy but I wasn't going to accuse her.  I told her I'd think about it, but I won't get back together with her...not happening, plus I'm probably going to be with one of the girls I'm going to homecoming with pretty soon.

Well, it's official, me and melinda are no longer together, the long distance thing just didn't work, it was fun while it lasted.  Oh well gotta move on.

R.I.P.

Steve Irwin

A.k.a crocodile hunter

Steve Irwin died today as result of a stingray attack, apparently the stinger went through his heart while swimming alongside one.  He died just a bit after 11 am australian time, he will be missed and so will his "crikey!".

My girlfriend and I have just celebrated our 2 month anniversary and I couldn't be happier.  I love her so much you don't know it, she means everything to me.

What can I say about campmeeting to wrap it up into 1 single word...

  

lovely.